I hate conflict. I hate drama. And I hate people that act dumb.
Don't get me wrong, I'm a total goof by nature. That's not what I'm talking about here.
I am struggling with a lot of personal issues. I'm struggling with just being "me".
I like "me". I think I'm a pretty cool chick.
I wear ALOT of hats in my house. We are a family of six plus two dogs and I do it all. Blah blah blah....every Mom does it all. That's not a news flash. And I'm not complaining.
But "Me" is tired. Not the Mom "me". Not the wife "me". I'm talking about the Kristin "Me". Mentally worn out.
I just realized that most people online don't even know me by my real name. Who IS that girl?
I love to race, I love to seek out new adventures, I love to just dream. But what I love and what everyone else need from me are two different things.
Over the last few weeks, I've been shut down and I really hate that. Mentally, I just can't go there.
I love my job. I love my life and my fam. But I do not love being shut down.
I do not wanna be in a mental funk so I'm releasing that. I'm not running from this. I'm running WITH my funk. I don't know all of the answers nor do I care to right now.
I am going to stay on top of my game though. I won't give in to negativity. And I will keep dreaming big.
I love most of the hats that I wear in life but I've got room on the hat rack for a couple more that mean something to me.
I know that everyone goes through ups and downs in life and I'm totally prepared for the ride. Until I figure out how to get a grip on my hat rack situation, I'll keep pushing forward.
So today I put on my favorite purple pants and took it to the gym. I needed to vent. I needed some "me" time. I got my "me" time and I got a clear headed workout. I've got a fire lit and I'm not backing down anytime soon. I still like "me". Issues and all. I'm gonna keep that feisty "me" girl around for a while!
That Kristin is a tough cookie and I like her. :)
Happy Running and Happy "Me". :)
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